Baby Girl

I dreamed of my daughter last night. So surreal and sweet.
Was about 2 years of age. Cute in a sweet way.
Was walking with her hand in hand in a place like expo.
Was crowded but with my family, my dad, mum and the wife.

The feeling was indescribable. It felt so calm, warm and paternal.
I think my time has come and from somewhere within, a switch has been turned on.

Trust

I don't trust people easily. More often, I'm skeptic about people and their moltives.
I miss the days when we were innocent and juz had simple things to look forward to...
I never like to have to explain myself, it makes me feel untrustworthy.
I think it takes a lot to trust and be trusted. However, most like me usually prefers to be trusted than to trust.
I like the blog, where trust can never be broken. It's one place where trust has a sanctuary; cause it never answers back.

Family seems the only place where I can or should put my trust in. But even that seems full of doubt now.

E tombstone/ cemetery online. Moving dead online

It's time...

To reflect: A new year is here. New changes HAVE to be made.
To think: A new career is possible. New job HAVE to be found.
To react: A new flat is ready. New family HAVE to be steadied.
To save: A new challenge awaits. New methods HAVE to be used.

An Ode to Happiness...

Good bye my friend... you will be dearly missed...

Although you left me nothing but seeds, shit and screams... these are the things I will remember you by...
Although you said nothing at all... you always did make the funniest noise...
Although you couldn't understand what I said... you still listened whenever I looked your way...

It hurts a little more than I expected.
It feels a little lonelier than I predicted.
It seems you mattered more than I anticipated.

You will be dearly missed... 

Quantum Physics

Imagine a cat and a can of cat food in the palm of your hand.
When you close your palm, the environment is sealed and there are only 2 possible scenarios:
1. The cat eats the food and survives
2. The cat dosen't eat the food and dies
Quantum physics theory states: BOTH scenarios take place at the same time in your palm.
- A finite scenario only takes place when a finite outcome is chosen WHEN the observer decides to open your palm and see/decide what it is.
The observer gets to choose...

Nothing Personal

This whole world is all about competition.

Even our very existence is borne of competition. (Survival of the fittest, Evolutionary theory, etc)
In the face of competition, how can there be goodness? If resources are scarce; and always remains scarce, how would one expect others to share, give, donate? Similarly, why would one help, assist, facilitate at the expense of themselves? Without moltives, seeking benefits to oneself, selfishness, how can there be kindness, friendliness, selflessness? If doing so defeats the purpose of competition, what other purpose would it serve if not to maintain something as crucial as 'survival'. How can there be any good in this world then? Even if we try and squeeze some pure goodness out, the essence of being human is still hard to be proven as good. Following evolutionary theory, all the good guys have already died. 

Even more complicated is the relationship between these 'good' and 'evil' traits. If they are opposites, aren't they all connected? So is good borne of evil? Or do we only compare good in the face of evil? This in itself holds so much to argue about; quite distinct from the initial paragraph.