Something wrong with my biological clock

Can't sleep when its right
Sleepy when its bright
Hungry late at night
This feeling I must fight

Fear

Never seems to disappear...

List of fears:
Work
Loneliness
Arguments
Heights
Death
Ghosts
Pain
Cockroaches

Making sense of the world

I used to think as a child, the world was 'fair'. Men and women were equal.
Both had to go through 'trials of life'.
For men, it was NS; for women, it was giving birth.
Forgive the naivety... its still there.

With this simple mind, I persist in believing the world is good natured.
Believing in choices, I persist in giving others the benefit of doubt.
Giving food and shelter, I persist in generousity.

Alas; I ask, how much is a packet of instant noodle that others are so unwilling to share?
Still, I persist in calling you a friend.

Too many similarities amongst all the complexities

I value TRUST
I value MEANING
I value ATTITUDE
I value DISCIPLINE
I value RESTRAIN
I value RELATIONSHIPS
I value MORALS

Its impossible to maintain them all in a lifetime... Which ones have you got remaining?

Wat a hellofaweek it has been...

In 1 week, I have learnt and reflected the following:

I think marriage is a hellofacommitment...
I think assessements should be better planned but not totally banned
I think people's life should be their own problem
I think some people will never understand or know what life is all about
I think love and relationships is not for everyone
I think humans will never triumph evil with good because those that say it will came from the evil side in the first place.

Wat a hellofaweek it has been...

What a dream....

Had an incredible dream last night as part of sleeping almost 12 hours.

The details of it would probably crucify me to hell on a moral high ground, although technically, I didn't commit major wrong. Which led me thinking... even in dreams, why do I hold back? Fear? Rationalism? Responsibility? Morals? Values? Which was more dominant?

Things that popped up in the dream: my old hdb flat, in the master bedroom, brother's room but no brother, cousin and uncle, an old maid which we were really attached to, an old friend I liked before. What a weird story it was when all the elements came together. But I liked it... was this my unconscious mind at work telling me something? or just simply, a dream...

Parts of it were wrong... but i liked it. chased it. looked forward to it. Maybe there is where I can hide and let my thoughts run free, but even in it I can't let loose... Why?!!

Orh!

I have learned to seek my happiness by limiting my desires, rather than attempting to satisfy them. - kaka, 2009

I'm still figuring out how to do this.