Nothing Personal

This whole world is all about competition.

Even our very existence is borne of competition. (Survival of the fittest, Evolutionary theory, etc)
In the face of competition, how can there be goodness? If resources are scarce; and always remains scarce, how would one expect others to share, give, donate? Similarly, why would one help, assist, facilitate at the expense of themselves? Without moltives, seeking benefits to oneself, selfishness, how can there be kindness, friendliness, selflessness? If doing so defeats the purpose of competition, what other purpose would it serve if not to maintain something as crucial as 'survival'. How can there be any good in this world then? Even if we try and squeeze some pure goodness out, the essence of being human is still hard to be proven as good. Following evolutionary theory, all the good guys have already died. 

Even more complicated is the relationship between these 'good' and 'evil' traits. If they are opposites, aren't they all connected? So is good borne of evil? Or do we only compare good in the face of evil? This in itself holds so much to argue about; quite distinct from the initial paragraph. 

Something wrong with my biological clock

Can't sleep when its right
Sleepy when its bright
Hungry late at night
This feeling I must fight

Fear

Never seems to disappear...

List of fears:
Work
Loneliness
Arguments
Heights
Death
Ghosts
Pain
Cockroaches

Making sense of the world

I used to think as a child, the world was 'fair'. Men and women were equal.
Both had to go through 'trials of life'.
For men, it was NS; for women, it was giving birth.
Forgive the naivety... its still there.

With this simple mind, I persist in believing the world is good natured.
Believing in choices, I persist in giving others the benefit of doubt.
Giving food and shelter, I persist in generousity.

Alas; I ask, how much is a packet of instant noodle that others are so unwilling to share?
Still, I persist in calling you a friend.

Too many similarities amongst all the complexities

I value TRUST
I value MEANING
I value ATTITUDE
I value DISCIPLINE
I value RESTRAIN
I value RELATIONSHIPS
I value MORALS

Its impossible to maintain them all in a lifetime... Which ones have you got remaining?

Wat a hellofaweek it has been...

In 1 week, I have learnt and reflected the following:

I think marriage is a hellofacommitment...
I think assessements should be better planned but not totally banned
I think people's life should be their own problem
I think some people will never understand or know what life is all about
I think love and relationships is not for everyone
I think humans will never triumph evil with good because those that say it will came from the evil side in the first place.

Wat a hellofaweek it has been...